the semicolon project



FullSizeRender-1FullSizeRender Today I went to a tattoo artist, and for $60 I let a man with a giant Jesus-tattoo on his head ink a semi-colon onto my wrist where it will stay until the day I die. By now, enough people have started asking questions that it made sense for me to start talking, and talking about things that aren’t particularly easy.

We’ll start here: a semi-colon is a place in a sentence where the author has the decision to stop with a period, but chooses not to. A semi-colon is a reminder to pause and then keep going. 

In April I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety. By the beginning of May I was popping anti-depressents every morning with a breakfast I could barely stomach. In June, I had to leave a job I’d wanted since I first set foot on this campus as an incoming freshmen because of my mental…

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snowy sounds/sledding


Not a sound is made as the flakes fall from the clouds.

No pitter-patter, no ping or plunk.

It piles high, inch upon inch, insulating the ground below.

You step outside your cozy home

And the silence is earth-shattering.

You grab you sled, and trudge up the hill.

As you sit to slide down, the stillness strikes you again.

Pushing off, the sound of the sled against snow

Thunders, the wind howls in your ears.

The friction becomes too much-

The sled slows to a stop.

You catch your breath.

And the silence quakes again

Pre, Present, and Post Valentine’s Day Stress Disorder (PVDSD)


Pre V-Day I was stressing pretty hardcore. I have never really had a good Valentine’s Day, and I was surprised to actually have a fantastic guy to spend it with this year. We aren’t in an official relationship, but we’re exclusive, so I had no clue what would happen. I don’t think he knew how to prepare at first, either. I didn’t know what to wear, what to expect, or even how to act. Honestly, I don’t know anyone who isn’t nervous about February 14th. I mean, it gets all the hype and there are too many unsaid expectations. Especially for the men… sorry fellas.

Lucky for me, my lovely man managed to find the perfect agenda for our relaxed relationship. Nice lunch instead of dinner, and the rest of the day just spent together. Flowers and chocolate, but no other gifts. It started out filled with a little bit anxiety and jitters, and not everything went quite as planned, but in the end I think most people realize this as well: all that matters is that you’re with the person you care about. All the nerves for nothing, right?

Now today we woke up, went to church, had lunch, the usual. But the post-V-Day effects were there. Still a little sappier than usual with the hand holding and pecks on the cheek. Not to mention, church was significantly emptier than usual. We’re apart now, which is good because I think it will help us transition out of the V-Day image. But it’s leaving me feeling a bit odd, but I don’t know what it is or why. Let’s just say it’s PVDSD.

Parody: Basic White Girls


For my writing class, we were supposed to write some sort of parody on a topic. Here is mine for basic white girls. It’s meant to be humorous and make a point at the same time. Enjoy!

It’s a harsh, ruthless world for females these days. Trying to look good without being objectified by men while still trying to fit in with your friends and their friends and their families’ friends. Fret no more! This guide will give you six easy steps for becoming just like everyone else!

  1. Get a MePhone

While MePhones are a bit pricey, it will be the only way for you to properly connect with all of your friends, followers (see #2), and the latest trends to make sure you’ll always be just like the girl next to you.

  1. Download Jiffypic (and use daily)

Jiffypic is a social network where you follow people and like their pictures and then they in turn follow you and like your pictures. The number of likes you get on your pictures directly correlates to you self-worth, so make sure you take a lot of mefies (see #4) and post them all the time. Also, taking pictures of leaves or your Moondoes (see #3) coffee cup will definitely help get your likes up. Just do whatever it takes to get hundreds of likes. Then you will be Jiffy-famous and that’s the whole point.

  1. Moondoes Coffee

The large majority of the population really doesn’t like coffee—our taste buds just aren’t designed to drink boiled dirt. However, none of that matters because it’s the cool thing to do. Not to mention that Moondoes figured out how to add sugar and flavors to their coffee so that you can say you’re drinking coffee but not want to dump it out because it tastes too bad. This habit of constantly drinking Moondoes may lead to an increased dependency on caffeine, but that’s okay. Everyone else suffers from the same thing; you’re not alone!

  1. Mefies

Once you have purchased your MePhone and downloaded Jiffypic, you are ready to take mefies. Basically, using the front camera on your MePhone, you take a picture of yourself, usually just the face. Of course you need to take these really often, and since you need the likes, this probably means you have to wear make up more frequently than you currently do. It might seem like a hassle, but it makes your pictures look so much different, you’ll thank me later. No one will even recognize you in person because your mefies are so great.

  1. Armings

If you’ve been to any store that carries clothes, you’ve seen armings on the racks. Yes, these are a necessity. While their skin-tight, sometimes-transparent nature has controversy everyone still wears them. They’re great for the gym, with Guus (see #6), for pajamas, or for going out if you pair them with the right pair of pants. The possibilities are endless and you’ll probably wear them every day, so buy a few dozen.

  1. Guus

No matter where you live, you must own a pair of Guus. Fur-lined and over-priced, these mittens are to be worn in any climate during the months of September-May. Guus go especially well with armings because the tight ends slide right into the Guus. They come in different colors, but don’t worry someone else is bound to have the same exact pair so you won’t feel left out.

If you follow this advice to a T, I can promise you will be just like every other girl who wants what you want: to fit in. As a fair warning, people may take to calling you “basic” or “typical,” but if you don’t do what everyone else is, you’re bound to be an outcast. So keep your chin up and prepare your wallet—you’re about to be as mainstream as it gets!

The main reason I chose to do a parody on basic white girls is because it is really a lose-lose situation. People who are different or outcasts tend to be ostracized by the public and bullied for those differences. So, then you decide to try and fit in by going with the popular crowd. Uh-oh, you’re basic and mocked for wearing what everyone else is wearing. This isn’t always the case, and I know you can find a “happy medium.” But we shouldn’t have all of these labels in the first place; why can’t we all just be who we are? Wear what you like because you think it’s cute. Drink what you want because it tastes good. Do what you want because you want to do it. If you happen be like someone else, that’ s cool, you have something in common. If you’re the only one who thinks that that sweater is awesome, even better–rock it.

In a perfect world…

Every day is a good day.



I stumbled upon this photo that I must have saved at some point last year. Granted that it is past New Year’s and I only plan to do this for the semester, but today I began by writing down 15 good things that have happened since the first of the month.

As I began to prepare the rest of the pieces of paper, I asked myself what the purpose of this was. At first I answered with the idea that it would be a reminder of a good thing that happened that day or a means to have something to look back on when it’s all said and done. But then I realized that I might have a really exceptional day and have more than one thing to say. And, as weird as it seems, I wasn’t sure I wanted to go back and read everything because I enjoy the genuine nature of simply remembering some things and forgetting others. So here was my conclusion:

Every night, I will write down all of the good things that happened that day, so I never go to bed feeling like I had a bad day. Then, as I put it in the jar, I can say a prayer of thanks for all of the blessings of my day. At the end of the semester I can simply appreciate that I have had so many good days, and the ones that are meant to stick will still be in my memory.

Sometimes we let the bad things overrun our days, especially when things don’t go according to plan. But if you’re focusing on the long check out lines or how you didn’t dress for the weather, you might miss the fact that seeing your friend at Walmart was exactly what you needed or how the sun is shining for the first time in a week. Really, every day is a good day if you let it be.

Silver Linings


Sometimes, silver-linings are completely overrated.

Sometimes, though, they become a true blessing.

After returning to school from break, I had my check-up appointment for my stress fracture. I was thoroughly expecting to have at max a few more weeks off and then I’d be dancing my heart away.

Two months is a bit more than two weeks. Needless to say, my life was toppled upside down, having to redo my entire class schedule the day before classes began and coping with a semester without dance.

However, there have been endless silver linings popping up every day, reassuring me that this was meant to happen, all part of a greater plan.

When things don’t go as you expect, sometimes it’s hard to get past that interruption in your life. But if you can manage to set it aside and look at the silver linings, you will be pleasantly surprised at the beauty that can come out of the darkness.